Blissful Blues.

She was fair,black eyes,short hair,with clips on either side to keep a few strands from falling on her pretty face.She had a smile that shook me from within from the first time I saw her.Being 2 foot nothing and at 7 years old I thought I had seen an angel,my first ever crush :)It was a good 5 years before I finally moved on and fell head over heels all over again.

Its a magical feeling,being infatuated,the whole purpose of leading a selfish life being lost and all that matters is one glimpse of the person who makes your heart skip a beat, actually 2 beats:)Those lovely days which started with arriving well ahead of time so that you catch them walking to class from the car park,staring away as if there was no tomorrow at the assembly hall,Skipping classes just to walk by the classes they would be at,find an excuse to stand beside them at the cafeteria,sit at a place where you have a clear view of the one person you would love to share your lunch with,and wanting to head back home only after they completely disappear from your sights at the end of the day wondering why tomorrow came so late.All that innocence being put to good use and the heart yearns for more.

So what if there are times when they take leave and you wish you had fallen ill too,or if you don't get to see them all day and start behaving like it is the end of the world,we seem to thrive on the pain during these heartaches:) Looking for an excuse to have a conversation only seems half the struggle than actually stop blushing when your friends tease you,as she walks past and your heart races like never before.And I figure only god could help if she turned your way and flashed that million watt smile and you wonder whether life was actually measured by the number of breaths you take or by moments like these that take your breath away.Well either ways you were in heaven and there was just one angel around:)

Her scent lingers and numbs your senses,so much so that you do not hear the class teacher calling out your name and asking you a question to which you obviously have no answer and get punished and if you did not learn from this incident once,chances are you don't ever learn it :)Your grades suffer but who cares,what's important is that she wore a new bracelet today.You get punished again,but hey her sweet voice called out your name from the attendance register.You did not complete your homework,well its her birthday tomorrow what am I going to gift her?When you have major worries such as getting your first love note/letter with the right words and as life itself revolved round her why would we worry about trivial stuff such as studies right :)?

Its a phase most of us go through,having crushes,falling in love,heartaches and given the opportunity I'd do it all over again for the sheer reason of giving a piece of my heart to someone I adore more than myself.The insanity of being all blue eyed about that one person who you would love to call your own.I love the feeling,over the years and after having a million odd crushes and heartaches from cute classmates to the ones on the big screen it never ceases to amaze how it happens in a different way all over again.As we grow up most crushes turn to fondness and since they are so close to the heart they remain friends for a lifetime and well the very reason on how I still am in touch with my first crush across miles where she is happily married and with a beautiful little kid :)

And that's why for me Infatuation is-A state of total captivation,the Experience-Bewitching,the Effect-Spell bound,Intoxicating,the Conclusion-Temporary,And yet we crave for more than we need,for we are humans and can be forgiven :)